Julie's Boobs 19     46 views

My last bras I bought are a 38C. I luv going bra shopping and trying on bras in the fitting rooms and I never catch any flak from the salesgirls cuz they do think I am a real cis woman. I have been passing as a girl and woman in public for many and I luv the fact that my illusion and deception is that good. Of course I have spent the majority of my life in the female mode, only going back into male modes from time to time cuz of guilt feelings or when I had to support myself working as a male. But having 2 personalities, male and female, of those one had to be putting on an act. As it has turned out my male side was the act and my female side was the real . I do luv walking around with my own 2 natural breasts jutting out from my chest! Now if I just had a pussy down below then I would be complete!

I have had 2 mammograms so far and everything has looked good. Mammography’s can be one of the most uncomfortable things in the world. What woman wants her breasts pressed almost flat from being pressed tightly between 2 plates? But this is a womanly thing to do so I do not mind and will continue to do so yearly, cuz I am a woman! Having my boobs is just one of the many things that have pushed me deeper into womanhood. Now it is almost as if I was not born a male and have never been a male with male genitals.

I have developed some new sensations now having my own breasts. Wearing a bra is one of them. I have always worn bras but the cups were filled with something or with prosthetic breast forms to create the illusion of having tits. Now my bra cups are filled with my own tits and this is totally a different sensation feeling them snugly encased in the bra cup. The material and my own skin are making contact. Another sensation is when I sleep I am no longer wearing a bra since having my own breasts and I sleep on my sides mostly but sometimes on my back or my tummy. If on my side I can feel my breast laying flat pressed against the sheet on the mattress. The outside of my boob covers area that it didn’t before. And I can now feel the texture of the sheet pressed against my skin. If I on my tummy I can now feel my breasts pressed underneath . When I was lactating I did leave some milk stains on the sheets beneath from seepage from my nipples. Sometimes I sleep on my back and can feel my tits slightly flatten and fall to the side towards my armpits. I getting used to it now but I can feel the motion of my breasts bouncing and jiggling when I walk, more so if not wearing a bra and also when wearing a bra I do get some sway. When Husband sucks on and massages my tits I have different sensations, it is physical and the other is mental and the thought of a man sucking on or playing with my breasts.

I wanted to lactate mainly just to experience what a woman does when her breasts are full of milk. If you have read some of my previous posts you might remember of writing about my lactation experience. I had always heard, read and saw films about Tgirls with their own natural breasts being able to lactate. I did provide breast milk for a young single mom that worked with my husband. I loved the thought of producing ‘mother’s milk’ that provided nutrition. I did purchase online a Medela electronic breast pump (and still have it) mainly to start my lactation. I did reading and research on how to start lactation and even asked my doctor about it. He did not know much on that subject because he is just a little beyond a GP but said he would research it. I his first and only transwoman he has had for a patient. He told pretty much the same as I already studied and read and the conditions would have to be right for me to produce milk. One of the things was that I had to have the proper female hormones, which are mainly estrogen and progesterone. My testosterone had already been diminishing and I was taking a male hormone blocker. As soon as my new breast pump arrived, I called it my milking machine because it milked me like a cow, I set it up and started using it as it was attached to my nipples. It took awhile for my breasts to start producing milk but they finally did. The young mom had to work full time and did not have time to breast feed or take breaks at work to pump her breasts. I would sit in front of my milking machine on the kitchen table and sit the 2 glass baby bottles on the table in front of me and attach the suction cups to my nipples and turn on the machine. At first I could not fill both the bottles but as it went along and a short time later I could fill most of the bottle on each side. I would sit and watch TV or set up my laptop and do things while I was being milked. I did order extra bottles so that I could fill more of them to refrigerate. I did like the fact that I could help the young mom in this fashion. Being that I was a stay at home housewife I had lots of free time so to the young woman out and for her to save money I started babysitting for her for free. I felt so womanly being mommy to her baby for about 9 to 10 hours a day and I was thrilled that I was actually nursing an infant from my breasts. It made me feel so much more womanly and feminine walking around with milk in my breasts, sometimes to where they might start leaking if I didn’t get them pumped out some to relieve the pressure inside them.

So my breasts have played a very big and important role in my womanhood. I luv the cleavage they create when wearing a low cut dress or top. I do know now just how important a woman’s breasts are to her. That is something that I share with GGs (cis women).

Pic #1 was about when I first noticed my breasts starting to develop
Pic 2 was several months later
Pic 3 was a little before 1 year
Pic 4 is about what they are now
Pic 5 I have these type of bras but most of mine are in white, black or beige.
N of these girls are me! I just borrowed the pics

I did have to delete several paragraphs because they somehow replicated themselves.

Yes I love being a gurl and all it entails